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我常想为什么妈这么爱园艺呢? 妈不管多累, 她也会抽时间去拔草, 浇水,施肥 就好向在照顾小孩般. 我想这可能和我喜欢graphic 一样吧. 当我们在做自己喜欢的事情时, 我们的兴趣与热情都会把疲累 排除在外, 专著在兴趣上.

看着老妈妈的菜园和花园, 我希望以后可以拥有意见一间有花园的房子. 那时我可以坐在自己栽种的花园里舒服的喝茶,看书享受傍晚的凉风. 

same as usual, boring day …

spent 4 hours surfing online..

search info for assign and project…

boring boring…

i miss my bed at home…

but still need to attend class…

next week need to show the progress to lecturer.. hai… busy..

this sem is really busy.. sigh.. so many things to do. stress.. especially FYP. this few day few like im lost… dunno what is the purpose of doing all of this and what did i need to do.. miss the holiday…

hai.. CNY going end soon, miss the holiday (although very busy). i have visited almost all the relatives in this holiday and gather with old friends.. hehe.. so happy..

but fall sick on 5th day..hai… sien..still havent fully recover until now :( 

yeah!!! will go back to kch next saturday, so happy ^^

i miss my family very much and also my cute "little brother" too…hope to see them soon.

will finish my job on next monday, them i can concentrate on my homework. hehe.. dont hav any progress since holiday start, so need to give some result before start new semester.

today’s work same as usual but there is some problem with my salary, hopefully can solve it soon. then i can go shopping before go back to kch. hehe…

Today really not my day… since I start working, everything was going smoothly and didn’t face much obstacles… but today, it seems like everything bad happens to me together… really upset…Maybe today my hormone not that balance..hehe.. That’s why distress easily.Anyway, i try to be optimisctic…

Today is my second day working in this company.
Same as usual, sometimes very boring especially
today my supervisor is not here. What i done today
is surfing internet for whole day, finding material
for my final year project and disturbing my sister
so that she can give me some work to do. i very pai
sei because the other colleagues were very busy and it
seems like im the only one very free.im trying to help
the others but seem like not much i can do since im
not really know their field. So i think there’s still
a lot i can learn in this company. i like my colleagues very
much cos they are very nice and friendly. not like the company
i ever work b4.

but im really boring boring and boring lar if i dont have
something to do……..

hopefully 2morrow will have a meaningful day ^-^

2day was my 1st day working in this company..everything run smoothly.hehe.. my collegue was so nice and friendly, they teach me a lot.tanx to them..

i still have a lot things to learn, but im quite boring when my ’senior’ havent find out what to teach me..hehe..so i loitering around, fr table to table disturbing my sister and her friend. since i havent had my own computer, so i need to use the receptionist pc to do some of my work..but there really cold..but nvm lar, cos i can online at there..hehehe…

I’m die liao…I’m addicted to on line novel, cant stop reading it although i should be study for my final exam…i like the story very much, is about magic, secretive, mystery….. Actually i found this website accidentally, there’s a lot novel here and is the type i like. hehe…

i haven’t download the whole chapter, is too long. i can spent whole day reading the novel and completely forget about the exam, very bad hor..i also know lar, thats why today i will only read it in lab and will do revision when go back to hostel. hehe…i also don’t want disappoint my mum mar…

now I’m waiting for the holiday.will go to KL again for one month. Haven’t meet my friend yet although they odi come back for one month..aiyo..this is the transport problem,no choice, my house is very far from the town…luckily can meet all of them during chinese new year..i like CNY very much

自从两年前的车祸发生后, 每年的这个时候我都回不自觉的回忆起那时候的点点滴滴.虽然已经两年多了,可是还是记的很清楚,没办法忘记.

记得那时大学在放中期假. 那天我因为不想老妈劳累,所以便主动载老姐去上班. 那时车里还有我的一位朋友. 当我驾到一个三叉路口的时候, 我那时不知怎么的没看见那辆LAND CLUSTER, 结果就被它撞了. 记得那时因为它的速度太快了,我驾的KENARI 在转了两圈后才停下来.过后我就不醒人事了. 不知过了多久, 我才在老姐的呼唤下醒来.那时我只看见老姐的额头流着血而我觉得我的脸湿湿的,浑身都很痛.过后老姐帮我用纸巾按住脸上的伤口,我才惊觉我流了很多血.我看见老姐那担心的脸我就好内疚,那时我想起了老妈和老爸,心想我又让他们担心了,为什么我会发生车祸?.当一些群众叫我尝试从车里出来时, 那时我没办法移动我的身体,只觉得很痛. 还好有一位好心的路人把我从车里抱进救护车,那时车外的记者就不停的拍照,我只觉得那些闪光灯把我弄的更头晕,真不知这些记者怎么在那么短的时间内知道这件事.在救护车里老姐不停的叫我不要睡, 我想那时她怕我会一睡不起吧.其实我现在好想流泪,没当想起这些就会很感动又内疚.

送进医院后, 我就被放在走廊上等安排.不久后,老妈和舅舅赶来了.虽然那时我还迷迷糊糊,可是我还是感觉老妈很担心, 心里就觉得很对不起她.等我清醒些, 老姐和朋友已经被安排做治疗. 还好朋友未受伤,不然我可对不起她和她的家人,内疚一辈子. 过后有一些护士过来看我的伤口,可是她们只是看了又摇摇头就走了.妈那时只是握着我的手告诉我没事.那时我大概猜到我脸上的伤口一定很严重,以后会变成怎样了. 当我看见老爸流泪时,我很伤心.只能告诉他我没事.我只能尽量把我的害怕担心隐藏起来,我不想让他们更担心. 过了好久我才被按排照X 光.我记得那时当护士们把我弄上X光床时她们把我弄得好痛. 之后,我被送去处理我脸上的伤, 那时是一位实习医生负责. 我到现在还记得那些麻痹针插入我的脸的感觉. 很恐怖. 我的脸总共缝了六十多针,那些大大小小的伤口全在右半边脸. 过后我就被告知可以回家了.可是我的下半身完全没知觉,不能起身所以又被送回X 光室,进行第二次检查. 过后他们才发现我右边靠近腰的骨头有一些裂了,所以造成一些神经受伤了必须住院一段时间.

在医院的日子里,我感受到父母的伟大.发生了这件事,他们没有成责备我,只默默的照顾我.每天老妈和老姐都会轮流到医院照顾我.那时老姐虽然还没康复,她还是不辞辛苦的照顾我. 看着她淤青了的半边脸,额头上的疤和肿肿的脚,内心真是百感交积.到现在还觉得都是我连累了她,如果没发生这件事她就不会这样了.虽然平时我们有不和的时候, 我也曾经埋怨她对我很凶,可是那时我才知道她其实很疼我. 我很庆幸我有很好的父母.那时老妈都无怨的照顾我的起居,帮助连自己起身都不能的我清洗身体,照顾我,开导我. 那时我每天都在老妈没发觉时偷偷哭泣,很后悔很难过这么大了还让老妈伤心. 其实住在医院真的不好受, 每晚都有病人痛苦的呻吟,难为老妈了. 老爸每天都往返医院和公司,还带了书本给我解闷.

住院第三天后,我的嘴巴能开了, 之前因为伤口, 嘴巴只能开一小逢.涮口后才发现嘴里还有玻璃,吓着老妈了. 为了要尽快出院,我很勤劳的做物理治疗.第七天我终于可以出院了.因为腰部的伤造成行动不便,那时只能用轮椅. 所以生活上的大小事都靠它来进行. 现在想起那时为了赶上大学的课程进度, 不让父母失望,坐在轮椅上赶功课学习的日子就觉得现在的我少了那时的毅力和信念. 我什么时候开始这样呢? 我想人在极端的逆镜下,毅力会特别强吧, 又或者是因为被后来的逆镜打败吧.

那段日子我很感谢所有曾经帮助陪伴我的人,我的父母,亲戚,朋友,教授和所有关心我的人.虽然平时没有很明显的表达,可是我会永远记住的, 已经放在心里了. 往好的另一面想,这件事也让我成长了不少,看清平时没发现的事,感受到家人对我的爱和宽容, 朋友的友谊, 很感谢你们给了我勇气和支持. 那时没有你们我可能不知怎么撑下去.